again

yeah it's been a while and it will be a little longer till I'm sober.  Drinking again well for the last time this yearit's dec. 30th will be the 31sat in a couple hours it will be the last day of 2012 fuck can it get worse my wife has a boyfriend why can't I the guy which is normal to  be the one cheating can't do it and yes I'm still married but only leaglely fuck my wife wish I could but kind of don't been there done that made a lasting impression and she happens to be cute :)  That's why I married her but every day I see her it makes me wonder why did I choose that hmm she made a beautiful child but her come on why???  I get to thinking her sister would be fun but the issues kind of block it but honestly how many guys can really saty they have done sisters I wouldn't I think her sister and I get along well don't want to ruin it.  Her sister is awesome and her kids even tho there with that guy there good they make me happy they call me uncle and as you know I have no sister or brother I have step ones but none real  Sip ahh mmm good it almost killed me but I like it.  Have to get up early to have coffee with family.  I wonder what will be thought if I smell like a brewerary while having a coffee.  All I want is a woman not a girl to help me pass the time and hopefully the way I want to he he that's enough blabbing for now so I'll TTYL Luctouque