again

yeah it's been a while and it will be a little longer till I'm sober.  Drinking again well for the last time this yearit's dec. 30th will be the 31sat in a couple hours it will be the last day of 2012 fuck can it get worse my wife has a boyfriend why can't I the guy which is normal to  be the one cheating can't do it and yes I'm still married but only leaglely fuck my wife wish I could but kind of don't been there done that made a lasting impression and she happens to be cute :)  That's why I married her but every day I see her it makes me wonder why did I choose that hmm she made a beautiful child but her come on why???  I get to thinking her sister would be fun but the issues kind of block it but honestly how many guys can really saty they have done sisters I wouldn't I think her sister and I get along well don't want to ruin it.  Her sister is awesome and her kids even tho there with that guy there good they make me happy they call me uncle and as you know I have no sister or brother I have step ones but none real  Sip ahh mmm good it almost killed me but I like it.  Have to get up early to have coffee with family.  I wonder what will be thought if I smell like a brewerary while having a coffee.  All I want is a woman not a girl to help me pass the time and hopefully the way I want to he he that's enough blabbing for now so I'll TTYL Luctouque

sorry

one is my daughter

another post

Now I have to say something about those pictures the one with the two beautiful women they work at the place I used to live at and they are beautiful.  One was me trying to take a picture of the lady who plays piano at my church another was the candles at the lighting of the nine candle ceramony that was at church and the other is that beautiful mom of one of the girls I used to live with and yes I mean girl.  UYou have to earn woman from me I know I've called some girls women on here but they are girls like the one who stole my Ipod camera and 600 cash and my 36 inch flar screen I'm too easily fooled or I just want someone to please but they half to be pretty in my books like that stripper that took all from me.  Christmas was good got a phone don't have it but got one my step sister has it I think I can trust her.  Hmm trust Ithink I shouldn't give it away so easily.  Oh one of the pics is the couple who help me at the soup kitchen I go to 10 times a week.  Money saved but got to watch the people who go there like that stripper with the small boobs.  Size of boobs doesn't matter to me the bigger I won't complain but I'm all for the other stuff.  Don't want to get x-rated on you.  So I'll TTYL  Luctouque

then that happened