SO THAT'S IT

        This will be my last post cuase the one who controls my life has read this and didn't like two things.  I like having a public diary but with the circumstance no more.  But if you need to know I go for coffee every morning and I do love my daughter so this is it.  I might do a different blog in the future but due to circumstances wont tell you how to find me.  If you know me well you could find it if I do but wont give any hints.  So I'm going to sign off in an innapropiate way so FUCK YOU and have a great day :(

again

yeah it's been a while and it will be a little longer till I'm sober.  Drinking again well for the last time this yearit's dec. 30th will be the 31sat in a couple hours it will be the last day of 2012 fuck can it get worse my wife has a boyfriend why can't I the guy which is normal to  be the one cheating can't do it and yes I'm still married but only leaglely fuck my wife wish I could but kind of don't been there done that made a lasting impression and she happens to be cute :)  That's why I married her but every day I see her it makes me wonder why did I choose that hmm she made a beautiful child but her come on why???  I get to thinking her sister would be fun but the issues kind of block it but honestly how many guys can really saty they have done sisters I wouldn't I think her sister and I get along well don't want to ruin it.  Her sister is awesome and her kids even tho there with that guy there good they make me happy they call me uncle and as you know I have no sister or brother I have step ones but none real  Sip ahh mmm good it almost killed me but I like it.  Have to get up early to have coffee with family.  I wonder what will be thought if I smell like a brewerary while having a coffee.  All I want is a woman not a girl to help me pass the time and hopefully the way I want to he he that's enough blabbing for now so I'll TTYL Luctouque

sorry

one is my daughter

another post

Now I have to say something about those pictures the one with the two beautiful women they work at the place I used to live at and they are beautiful.  One was me trying to take a picture of the lady who plays piano at my church another was the candles at the lighting of the nine candle ceramony that was at church and the other is that beautiful mom of one of the girls I used to live with and yes I mean girl.  UYou have to earn woman from me I know I've called some girls women on here but they are girls like the one who stole my Ipod camera and 600 cash and my 36 inch flar screen I'm too easily fooled or I just want someone to please but they half to be pretty in my books like that stripper that took all from me.  Christmas was good got a phone don't have it but got one my step sister has it I think I can trust her.  Hmm trust Ithink I shouldn't give it away so easily.  Oh one of the pics is the couple who help me at the soup kitchen I go to 10 times a week.  Money saved but got to watch the people who go there like that stripper with the small boobs.  Size of boobs doesn't matter to me the bigger I won't complain but I'm all for the other stuff.  Don't want to get x-rated on you.  So I'll TTYL  Luctouque

then that happened

BITCH

       That girl and even tho she is over 30 still happens to be a girl and I want a woman but, women find me too young, can't win for loosing.  Well I found out that that girl is an addict, so even tho she was good feeling in the sack and she had no tits and I do mean no tits.  So I might look for a real woman later.  Not tonight cuase we all know who is out there at night.  I've thought about it cuase they never say no but I can do it on my own don't want to but will. Well that's too much info but my blog is my diary so bthh.  I know no one reads it anyways and if someone is reading leave a message cuase I would like some ideas on how to fix or improve my life cuase we all know I'm stuck.  So stuck you might say drinking again, might say well, I get the taste in my mouth and it makes me want another one but it only goes as far as wanting one.  I might of said I went out to a bar on here well I did only had one then Pepsi cuase we all know what beer did to me.  My wife says I reverting back to the way I was when I was at the Glenrose which is common to BI but tell her that.  Yes I have been easy to anger lately but no violence.  I really want that woman well the idea of her, she said the right things and we all know if that is true get out that should of been my first sign but I really want a woman so I didn't heed the warnings which I would of if I am not so despirate.  (spelling error, don't care)  I must care cuase I went through the effort to tell you so I'll TTYL Luctouque

I'm back

 Sorry for not posting for a while and so you know I got a pole dancer for my transfer pole in my living room.  Just kidding she's my new girlfriend.  yeah I said it, girlfriend.  Well she's a girl and she's my friend so girlfriend.  Well she's more than that I'd like to say we are kind of lovers.  Maybe that's going to far cuase we're new, isn't she hot.  He he.  She's named after a State well guess which one, maybe it's an emotional state and no it's not anger.  A while ago I went to this job finding party called jofest and I won an  Ipod.  Cool huh?  So I guess you want to know what I did today well I know you probably know but I'll tell you anyways and yes I do it practicly everyday.  Coffee with the uncle in the morning.  Then I went to a job festival type thing and won an Ipod.  Still trying to figure out how to use it, stupid brain injury.  There having a going away party at the BI place I go to for me, yep I'm leaving them well, it's been good while I was with them and one of my cousins works there but she wasn't allowed to work with me you know, family.  Oh rereading my post I need to clairify something the jobfest was a few days ago, maybe a week or so, not today.  And yes it's past my bedtime by 2 and a half hours, I'm living large.  So I'm probably going to watch a movie with her later and maybe makeout, smile.  She has a dog.  I want a cat but not alowed animals in my apartment, sad.  So 5 today and the other days I had three as my least and 8 as my most.  I know.  I know, I'm slippen but I still have them I don't keep track of them as much as I used to but still have them.  Well If you'd like to know something leave the question as a comment and I'll try to answer it in my next post and yes I won't post everyday.  Just once in a while cuase I don't do much oh, I'm volunteering at a soup kitchen now just want to kind of pay them for feeding me since it's free.  Well I think the price is right.  So I'll continue to sign off so I'll TTYL Luctouque

Almost

       Almost ten days couldn't wait.  I got my internet back today so if I wanted too I couldn't write on here yesterday.  Well I went for coffee in the mornings past then I went and did some stuff.  I applied to the soup kitchen well to volunteer so we will see monday if they want a handicapped guy to help them.  If I do that means I'm kind of paying for my meals.  Happy.  Oh I'm still on those dating websites just for fun now because not even getting a nibble.  Well this one has games I can play so it's all good but can't help to get to thinking what is it about my persona that's so unappealing oh well I like me and I'd take me out for coffee and listen to my stories.  So it's all good  TTYL Luctouque