BITCH

       That girl and even tho she is over 30 still happens to be a girl and I want a woman but, women find me too young, can't win for loosing.  Well I found out that that girl is an addict, so even tho she was good feeling in the sack and she had no tits and I do mean no tits.  So I might look for a real woman later.  Not tonight cuase we all know who is out there at night.  I've thought about it cuase they never say no but I can do it on my own don't want to but will. Well that's too much info but my blog is my diary so bthh.  I know no one reads it anyways and if someone is reading leave a message cuase I would like some ideas on how to fix or improve my life cuase we all know I'm stuck.  So stuck you might say drinking again, might say well, I get the taste in my mouth and it makes me want another one but it only goes as far as wanting one.  I might of said I went out to a bar on here well I did only had one then Pepsi cuase we all know what beer did to me.  My wife says I reverting back to the way I was when I was at the Glenrose which is common to BI but tell her that.  Yes I have been easy to anger lately but no violence.  I really want that woman well the idea of her, she said the right things and we all know if that is true get out that should of been my first sign but I really want a woman so I didn't heed the warnings which I would of if I am not so despirate.  (spelling error, don't care)  I must care cuase I went through the effort to tell you so I'll TTYL Luctouque